Wild Kingdom of a Future

Three Weeks. She has been in our family, and our care for three weeks.

Tonight as we were all trailing down to the pool, with Sveta in tow,  dancing and singing in her Dora the Explorer swimsuit, Peyton looks at us and says "it seems like she has been with us forever..."

Yes, Peyton it does.

We can't imagine life without this little girl.

Three weeks ago we took her out of her home, an orphanage - a "baby house" in Nicolaev, Ukraine. That was a long, long night. Sveta was overwhelmed and cried for an hour or more as I tried to calm her. She eventually calmed and fell asleep, completely drained, in my arms.

We wondered how we would make it through the rest of our life with Sveta. She seemed to want to go back to her "groupa"....how would we make her a part of our family..something we desperately wanted for her..and for us? 

The first weeks have been hard, challenging, adjustments on every level. I have fallen asleep at night wondering what God has asked of us. Will we adjust Lord?

Yes!! 

A resounding, overwhelming, with trumpets blaring YES!!!!

But adjustments will come little by little and with more patience than we can muster sometimes. I personally call on the Lord daily for energy ( I am OLD!), wisdom, and for the Lord to continue to use us. Somehow..this happens through our children. Our Peyton, wise beyond his years helps us with adjustments, wisdom and even patience. Ever wonder how siblings will adjust?

Peyton willingly helps out in any way with his little sister. He is helping her to learn to trust her family.

We love this little girl...a love God has placed in our hearts.

She is the sweetest blessing.

                                                      

I am so thankful for all my children.

Children. It's a wild kingdom around here...but blessings abound.

ICE CREAM?????  TOO COLD!!!

Her COLOR is better, her SKIN feels different, her HAIR is growing, she is GAINING weight, she SMELLS different...

She is OURS.

She is home.

This is just the tip of the iceberg. Adjustment is for life. It's good, bad, and in between. Tonight we had to call security to unlock a door in the condo...why? Sveta had locked it and despite all attempts we couldn't break into the room. What did she do when security arrived?

Grinned her million dollar smile and shrugged her shoulders.

Adoption has changed our lives. It's not for every family...but if you feel the tug...and answer the call...it's a journey of blessings and trial beyond measure. Worth it?

Always.

It's a Wild Kingdom of a future....Follow Us There!

Yes, Sveta..One mama, One daddy..

Life has been a blur but it is getting easier as we are working on  routine. Sveta thrives on a schedule and she is learning more english - it's funny the first sentence she will say now without prompting is "I love you!" She will say Peyton and Paige's name in her little four year old voice. She says "dada" now for Daddy and sometimes calls me mommy instead of mama.

She is trying new foods and is no longer living on potatoes and bananas. She even tried popcorn last night! We are celebrating every little accomplishment and working on how to handle the times Sveta gets overwhelmed. I can now see it coming and try to avoid being around too many people. We are mostly just staying around the house but Peyton and Paige have gymnastics/crossfit twice a week and Sveta has to go. Usually it's okay but Tuesday there was a clinic at the gym and LOTS of people. I have learned one way Sveta "checks out" and handles overstimulation is by going to the potty every 1.5 seconds. So, we did that alot and I tried to keep her on my lap and quiet. I could see at the end of the hour she was beginning to melt down.....meltdowns for Sveta dont involve tantrums but wildly erratic behavior like running around in circles screaming (not crying) just squealing. Not listening to anyone and running away from me when I tell her no. I could see it coming and tried getting the kids together and out of there before Sveta meltdown occurred.

Sveta is a sweet, affectionate little girl and people observing her will say "oh she is adjusting so well" but I promise you we are very aware of the coping skills Sveta is working on with our help. She is doing the very best she can and IS doing amazing considering what all she is trying to process - her life has been turned upside down.

No child can come through being institutionalized for any length of time unscathed.

There are things Sveta was trying to tell me last night which broke my heart. Without going into detail I will just say I told her she was safe and never had to go back there again. She kissed my face over and over and said " I love you, I love you. one mama, one dada."

Yes, Sveta - ONE mama, ONE daddy.

And we will never let you go.

So...if you know us and see us out understand she has learned to fight for survival, to put on a "happy" face out of necessity for life in an orphanage and that God is continuing to work in our hearts to understand all Sveta is facing. If you have emailed, called, texted or sent message by carrier pigeon know I am just swamped and promise I am not ignoring you. Thank you to the wonderful ladies who have brought us meals! You can't imagine what a blessing this has been as that is the most difficult time of day. My brain is usually fried and I actually accidentally locked the exterminator IN our house today. Yep.

Fun times.

We head to the beach for a while next week and pray our time together with just the five of us will help to create even more bonding. Sveta loves all the attention and loves the water so it should be fun...and busy.

Sweet baby girl...fast asleep...I love her so much. I find myself thanking her birthmother for giving her up. I will never know the circumstances which led Sveta to be left in the hospital but thank God He placed her in our family.

Dance Baby Dance

                             
                    My God He lives. My God He Loves!!!

                           My God He's Always There for Me.

Every day we crank up the music...and its all about praising the Lord!!

Sveta has caught on, and she is so cute! And she knows already to hold hands, bow heads and say blessing for every meal! Actually..she is quite bossy and yells at us in Russian to say the blessing before she will even put a bite in her mouth! LOL!!

Lord...continue to work in her little heart and help us to teach her to LOVE YOU!!!!

Whoo...We are getting this baby to a haircut ASAP.

Lot of Crazy.. Lot of Love.

She said 'I lub you mama' to me tonight.

Why, Why, Why don't MORE GO?

Go for babies like Sveta????

Say YES.

To NO MATTER WHAT THE CHALLENGE IS.

And...MONEY ?

IS NOTHING TO GOD.

It doesn't matter what the COST is...

Little Lives like Sveta's are worth so much more that WORRYING

ABOUT HOWS? WHYS? WHATS?

MONEY??

OH MY LORD...

It's NEVER our MONEY anyway.

We as a WHOLE need to SAY YES.

Say

YES.

TO CHILDREN WHO HAVE NO ONE.

Like Alyona.

 SHE HAS NO ONE.

Say Yes to Dima. Who has

No ONE.

LORD we pray more will say YES.

WE WILL GO.

Thank you Lord for opening our eyes and taking us on the wild, journey to our Sveta. It took loving past blinders, leaving so many we thought understood behind, it tood TRUST in YOU alone. It took learning YOU know what the plan is.

And teaching SHE deserves a better LIFE.

Say NO to this? 

 To HER??

NEVER.

WE WOULD NEVER SAY NO.

TO GOD???

WE SAID YES!!

WE PRAY MORE WILL SAY

YES!

WE WILL GO.

 GO NOW. 

WHY?

Because it's THAT important to our GOD.

What matters to YOU?

Why are you saying NO?

What matters to Him?

Can you take your expectations and desires out of the picture?

It's hard.

We did.

And it's not easy.

Sveta is our baby and SHE is a product of His plan.

She was meant to be held. Loved. Cherished.

Why are there so many left behind like Sveta???

Who will say yes?

We will GO?

what if..

 We have had many questions asked to us...many what if's.

What if there is something wrong with her?

What will your "real" kids think? What will this do to them?

What if she can't speak English? (umm...she CAN'T but she is LEARNING!)

What if, what if, what if..?

WHAT IF?

God knows EXACTLY what He is doing.

And HE knew SHE was our CHILD.

It is not a question. He knows EXACTLY what the plan is.

What IF...?

He has ordained it ALL through His mercy.

And HE knows exactly what the outcome will be.

Siblings hugging nonstop.

Bonding.

What If?

What if...you are exhausted. Your expectations are completely different from reality? You wonder what in the world God is asking of you.

Oh. It will happen - you will be tired. Overwhelmed. Frustrated even.

And.

What if...

You continue to TRUST that He knows the plan and will show you the way. No matter how that plan looks.

What if...

His plan is greater than anything you could have orchestrated?

Friends, we are tired! But He is GOOD. And every morning we wake knowing it is a new day to enjoy our sweet family - expanded through the blessing of

ADOPTION!

It is LOUD here, full of LOVE, HUGS, non stop "I LOVE YOU's" and PEACE.

SOMEHOW IT IS ALL OKAY.

Triumph

Psalm 92

It is GOOD to give thanks to the Lord, And to sing praises to Your name

To declare Your lovingkindness in the morning,

And Your faithfulness every night,

On an instrument of ten strings,

On the lute,

And on the harp,

With harmonious sound.

For You, Lord, have made me glad through

Your work.

I will 

triumph

in the works of Your hands!

We are celebrating His work.

His Lovingkindness for ALL his children.

Triumph.

Adoption is always His plan.

He is Faithful.

Yes, it is hard work.

And the real journey is just now beginning.

But His work makes us

Glad.

And Her life is worth everything to us.