I wear my heart right where everyone can see.
That gets me in trouble. A Lot.
I can't stand it that when I am hurt I get so upset I become angry.
And I am hurt right now. Hurt that we have family members who won't even acknowledge we are having another child. Hurt that I have friends who are desperately trying to raise money to adopt their little girl and they aren't getting a lot of support in their town. Oh this hurt makes me morph into something I don't like. I say things that I DO mean but they aren't nice. Then I look back and go "you know...that wasn't exactly appropriating God's love there....hmmm" And I get all wrapped up in being hurt and angry again and end up sounding horrid. Not a nice place to rest in.
It’s not about ME.
It’s not about what God can do for me.
It is about listening for His voice.
Saying where you go I will go.
Where you tell me to step I will step. In faith.
Saying yes when the world says "WHY are you doing this!"
Saying we will go when the rest of the world doesn't want to look because the images are too hard.
It's about His love. How much He loves us and the tremendous Love He has placed in our heart which we get to give BACK so freely.
Outside of Him we don't even know what real love is.
So, no more holding expectations of how I wish people would act. Because there are always people who are going to let me down. My confidence is not in people...its in Him.
As I have said over and over...